One with, One without

School Report

2009-11-01T19:28:00.000Z

Its been a terrible half term. Ive had both children shouting at me in each ear all week. Needless to say, ive had a headache!

S had a bad day Thursday. His friend knocked, they went out to play with their lightsabers and 15 minutes later S was back in. He said his friend wanted to swop lightsabers, S said no so the friend went in! S was very very upset and revert back to baby talk ( for the rest of the week actually)

We had a mini halloween party on friday and he cheered up, and even took part in some games. He was histerical playing musical statues.... if I didnt know any better I would say he was doing Dad Dancing!! he won some prizes so he was most happy!

Back to school tomorrow tho....

So in S's new middle school we get a mini report every term/half term. Its shows his sats levels. This is all new to me so serveral phone calls to friends later, i understand it all....well ish.

Basically a 9 year old should be around the 3a mark in all subjects (if ive got this wrong, please tell me!)some are gonna be above that (4a ) some below (2a)

S was 3a in science, PE and music which was great! He was 2a in maths and 1a in english. Now from what I can gather 1a means hes about 2/3 years behind. I knew that, so no surprise there. I was really pleased at the higher ones tho, and considering he hated PE in primary school, he loves it now!

He is getting better with englsh, he is getting all his spellings right which is really boosting his confidence. and he wants to do them.

The god awfull battle of wills that went on trying to get him to read or do any homework at home have vanished. It also helps that they get a 5 minute detention if they dont do their homwwork!!

The new school has been great so far, hes really made progres and actually said to me "why do they help me more in this school?"

I think that says it all really.

Im seeing the head of SENCO tuesday, funnily enough she taught me at that school and remembers me so it makes it a whole lot easier.if theres any thing to report...I will !!

(if you see any typos, sorry! for some reason the spell checker has disapeared?!)

Support!!

2009-10-05T13:01:00.001+01:00

Well I never! Today I had a visit from a parent support worker. It seems she has been about for a year or so but I've only just found out about her!
She was lovely and exactly what I need. She's there to deal with anything, autism, school, housing, money, and me! Even if I just want to moan at her... I can!!
It seems finally I've meet someone that is their to help.. Opposed to the "fill a form in, nah we can't actually help you" that I normally get.

Saying that, all is ok at the moment, S is doing well at school and already making progress. He got 5 spellings right last week whereas at last school the maximum ever he got was around 1!
He's also playing out alot and hurting himself with it! Nothing serious but more cuts and scrapes in the past 2 weeks than we've ever had!

So things feel a bit better knowing that I have someone that understands autism and that I can call anytime for anything, instead of just me sitting here trying to work it all out. Now I have someone I can talk it through with.

Happy days!!!

-- Posted from my iPhone

I phone blogging!!

2009-09-16T21:15:00.001+01:00

This is sort of a test, and also a post as I've just got an app to let me blog from my iPhone... So here goes!!

We had S's hearing test today. Never a simple explanation with us! His hearing is fine, but for some reason he is lip Reading, and according to him, if he's looking at you then he hears you louder... If that makes sense!!

So the nice women testing him seem bemused as so why he's doing it... Is it the autism or is there something else... A problem processing the sound when it gets to his brain?
They are gonna test him again in 6 months so I'm just gonna leave things as he's happy enough unless something drastic happens.
He has settled in well to the new school and seems very grown up already... Mind you he's not had any homework yet so that may change!

As for me, I start my next open university course in a couple of weeks... Creative wrtiting... So I should have lots to write about when we get to the life writing part.. Maybe I will write a book based on this blog after all..!

Thanks for reading ( if this new app worked and you can see it!)
-- Posted from my iPhone

Deaf...? what did you say?

2009-08-12T15:54:00.003+01:00

Hello!
As I said in my last post, I'm only gonna post if anything happens....and a couple of things have occurred which, I thought I would post about. ( we live a very uneventful life really!!)

The other week we all went to one of the museum's in Cambridge. It all started out well, we went on the bus, fine, got off and went into town, fine, then S said can I look in the Disney shop for a new Woody. Hes always been into Toy story, and we have LOADS of Woody's!
I said ok because he had turned the last one into Rimmer from red dwarf (drew a H on his forehead!) and we couldn't get it off, so he wanted a new one.

So I bought him one and he got it out he box etc and from that point on, it all went a bit downhill. He turned in to Autistic S, his body language changed, he became very ridgid in his movements, his speech became very toddler like. OK so its not really down hill but- before I had bought him the Woody, he was acting just like any other child.

TO cut a long story short, he got a bit bored in the museum in the end, and he also said he was scared in there so we went to the shop and I got a few little things, and I turned round and there he was, crying his eyes out! I sat him down asking him whats the matter and in between the crying he said he wanted a fan and couldn't have one because I had already bought him stuff but he didn't know they were there!! I sat there thinking...."all this crying over a 75p FAN!!
I bought him one and he was absolutely fine, fanning himself because it was hot, and then he started to return to acting like an everyday child, like he was when we got to Cambridge.

Its so bizarre how he can act in different ways, changing suddenly. He's always has been like this since he started school, acts just like the rest of the kids in school, then acts completely different at home, hiding his autism from his peers. I put the change in Cambridge down being out of routine, a new place to visit which he had not been to before, all the usual stuff, but it still amazes me, and makes me wonder if he realises he acts one way, then another so quickly? Although hes been acting quite "baby like" lately because its the holidays.

The second snippet is basically S is of to have another hearing test because we think he may be slightly Deaf. When he was under 5, he had lots of ear infections, and perforated his ear drum twice. At about 6 they tested his hearing and he was deaf in one ear, BUT it resolved itself. so I thought!! The thinking now is that maybe he just got used to it, because the other day I was calling and calling him, and he had his back to me. After shouting at him, he turned round and said to me, all ''matter of fact..."you know I cant hear you unless I'm looking at you"

OMG! well I went to the Doctors, hence the hearing test, which we are waiting for. The Doctor seemed quite convinced that he was maybe lip reading a bit to compensate.
BTW I saw a new Doctor and she was LOVELY!! she took his autism into account, even ASKED ME ABOUT IT!! I nearly fell over in shock!!!!

Ill post about the results of the hearing test, not sure when the appointment is gonna be yet, soon hopefully!! apart from that we are all just milling around waiting for the school hols to finish cos we are BORED!
Oh and Ive taken up knitting socks!! its quite therapeutic really and I'm making cool stripey socks for S at the moment!!

And I almost forgot... I passed my open university course so I now have a Cert. in humanities! woho00oo

Touch wood

2009-07-05T17:18:00.004+01:00

Helloo!

I'm still here, but Ive not had much to blog about lately on the autism front.

I don't want to fill this blog up with useless, boring posts, about how I broke my little toe the other day (true, and ow) so there will be times where I don't post for a while, but the blogs still active!!

As I say, nothing much has happened, touch wood, well, I did tell S that I would start giving him pocket money ( hes grasping the money concept well now) if he keep his room tidy.

He said "no, I'm not doing THAT".

I said " right OK then, just don't ask me for any money for the shop."

He hasn't, so that worked well then didn't it!

He also went for a group visit to his new middle school, called a transition group for the kids that may have trouble adjusting to the new school life. He said it was boring because they just went in and out of each classroom, being told what happened in each room. Oh well, I think overall he will be fine, we may have ropey first week, but lets wait and see.

That's it, everything been great, the housing people agreed with my appeal that I should be able to bid on 3 bedroom council houses, (they said I could only bid on 2 bed) so that's sorted, and Ive signed up for my next Open university course - creative writing!! Crikey!

Its twitter and this blogs fault I'm doing it..it seems to have been a natural journey, as I wanted (and people have agreed its a good idea!) to write a autism book, based on this blog, for UK parents. I still want to, but found it hard to organised my thoughts, so hence the course. In the meantime, Ive tumbeled into writing fiction for the first time, and have an idea for a novel about a boy with autism. I'm also writing some short stories, so I'm going to just go with the flow, and see where it all takes me.

Thanks to everyone for all the brilliant comments , they really make my day and encourage me.

So I'll blog when something autism related happens instead of boring you about my little toe or what I had for dinner last night......just follow me on twitter for that!

Learning all over again

2009-06-14T12:46:00.009+01:00

Its really quite strange, but I knew that my youngest son E, didn't have autism from the moment he was born!

He looked at me, that's it. No sixth sense or anything, he just looked at me. As the weeks and months progressed, it was obvious he didn't have autism, and it was a completely new concept for me to get my head around!

It still amazes me today at the things that my youngest does, things that most parents take for granted. I never took anything for granted with S, and things that children learn automatically, from copying/imitating/instinct, never happened, so I had to teach him. I never realised this until I had my youngest, who learned things on his own, then I realised that S didn't have that ability. (he was my first child so I didn't know any different)
S rarely looked at me as a baby/toddler, and when he was older he used to take me by the hand if he wanted something, I was a tool that he could use to obtain things, and then when he got what he needed, I was no longer necessary.
Sounds harsh I know, but that's how it was. There was no emotional attachment, unlike my youngest who looked at me, wanted cuddles, wanted to be with me and wanted to get things for himself, and would only resort to asking me to help him if he couldn't do It!

Even now my youngest wants me to sit with him, do things with him and It took a lot of getting used too! I was used to a child that wanted to be left on his own, didn't make a fuss, or the extreme was having to do strange things or drawing that used to last all day because he would do the same thing over and over again, tantrums because he didn't understand, it was extremes, one or the other, no in between.
I was also used to a child that couldn't speak until around the age of 4, that didn't ask questions, that wasn't interested in going out side to play, or interested in the world around him.

I didn't realise what I, or S to be honest, had missed out on in the early years. My youngest is always playing with toys, pretend playing, cuddling me (that was a new concept for me!) asking questions, trying to write, trying to read...the list is endless.

Having my first child with autism, then one without autism,has been difficult, its taken a long time to adjust to the differences and its been a steep learning curve because I didn't know what a child without autism did! I still ask my friends if E "should be doing this" because I don't know.
In a way its like having a first child and knowing nothing, and learning to be a parent all over again.

Baby face

2009-06-04T11:21:00.005+01:00

Ive been busy the past week or so but Ive finally got round to writing a new post!

S has been OK ish the last couple of weeks, although lately Ive noticed he has changed his DVD viewing habits. Hes taken to watching cbeebies DVDs or big cook little cook and pingu. Ok so that's not a bad thing, nothing to worry about really but take that along with the fact that hes been a a little bit different, I'm wondering if there's something up with him.

The "Dark" thing has not been an issue to much, yes all the lights are on and yes he still says "Dark..take me to bed!" but its not a huge impact on our lives.

He has though been quieter than usual at times, being on his own more and showing his "babyface" as i call it. "Baby face" is when he starts to act differently. His facial expression is different, that of a scared toddler, he talks differently, calling me "mama" and his voice sounds all "babyish". He has always done this so I'm used to it. I think its a form of regression, to act like a toddler again, because he finds it difficult being his age, the demands of school etc and its a dam sight easier to act like a baby/toddler. I always wonder if there is a reason that triggers him to act like this, or if its just the way his autism is with him, periods of regression at home and then times when he acts pretty much OK. Ive never been able to find out a reason from him, and I think its because he cannot actually express the way he is feeling. I'm not even sure if he knows himself. I'm leaning towards the ...the way his autism is with him... theory but what with the changes coming up I hope that they don't push him further into a regression.

The big change is coming up in September (I have to start thinking about it now, well actually Ive been thinking about before now!) as he goes to middle school. Ive already had to explain that he will be going every day as he thought it would be only once a week and he would be staying at primary school! The new school have been great so far so I have no worries about him going, he is going to do well and get a lot of support for a change, which will help improve his reading (its a few years behind because he doesn't "do" books) I wonder if he is thinking about changing school, and that is the reason he has changed lately, but when I ask him he says no, and says everything is fine, as usual. I just hope he copes OK with the change after a few weeks of settling in. With support he should do.

So that's it so far, I hope that my ramblings have made sense! I find it quite hard sometimes as everything that S does is "normal" to me, so I have to think "is this worth writing about"! So far, so good though!

lovely blog award..no2!!

2009-05-31T12:36:00.013+01:00

Ive just been given this award by sandy . Shes a new blogger and is doing great so far so please pop over and visit her.

So thanks sandy, I am very grateful . So now that I have more time for blogging, I will pass it on. Here are the rules!

Accept the award, post it on your blog together with the name of the person who has granted the award, and his or her blog link.

Pass the award to 10 other blogs that you’ve newly discovered. Remember to contact the bloggers to let them know they have been chosen for this award.

So here are my top ten blogs that Ive discovered over the past few weeks:

motherofshrek

another day in the madhouse

okesanne

Dealing with the day

little finch feathers

clareybabbling

3 bedroom bungalow

and one more means four

ms. s. tonins blog

how to survive life in the suburbs

I hope you all enjoy these blogs, go visit them!!!!

I cant fix doors.

2009-05-28T17:00:00.007+01:00

Today, S woke up with a temperature, the washing machine broke, (although its fixed now)and my 3 year old had a temper tantrum and slammed the door so hard it managed to get wedged and he got locked in the living room.

I managed to get a screw driver and "unlock" him. I then decided to try and fix said door, so un-screwed the door handle to realise that I had no idea what I was actually doing, so just screwed the dam thing back on again.
S got a bit upset cos I was shouting at E "you've gone and locked yourself I...arrggghhh I cant get you out!!" etc etc. He was concerned with the fact that "someone" was locked in "somewhere".

My 3year old is now playing with play-doh, S is still ill and dozing and whilst writing this after everything has calmed down..Ive realised Ive not actually had time to eat anything today (3 year old had a plate of sandwiches, carrot, cucumber, ham and cheese for tea!) so I'm off to make sausage sandwiches...cos that's what I want!!

Autism/blogger networks

2009-05-27T15:42:00.009+01:00

I wanted to post about a couple of networks that Ive joined in the past few weeks which I think are really good and have already enabled me to meet some other autism parents and blogger
They are the autism-network and the britishmummybloggers.

Both these sites are social networks set up by individuals. They both work on the same principal and offer you a place to blog, join groups, add discussions and meet like minded people.

The autism-network is for anyone with an interest in the autistic spectrum, from individuals with autism to parent/carers of children of any age. Its a world wide network, and its member numbers are growing everyday. Ive already met some people on there and I update my blog posts regularly. The site also has a resources page and is continually updated, so I recommend joining if you have an interest in ASD.

As for British mummy bloggers (BMB) Don't let the name fool you, its for Dads aswell!
This is a wonderful network to met up with other UK parent blogger's. Ive met some great people on there already and discovered some wonderful blogs, which i would never have found other wise. There are lots of groups from regional, to media requests, and of course my own autism parents group! Its a busy friendly group which always has something going on, and is open to any parent blogger in the UK.

So there you go, a brief look at my 2 favourite networks, !! I definitely recommend joining either or both of them, depending on your interests.

Someone told me about them, and if they hadn't, then I would never had known, so I thought I would do the same, enjoy.

Quick update...

2009-05-26T22:59:00.003+01:00

I've not posted for a week as I have been busy finishing my last essay for the open university course i have been doing since October. But I'm glad to say Ive finished it and one more read through and its sent....its finished and I'm relieved!!

Ive decided to focus my time now on this blog and other Autism related things. The blog has had such a great response since i started it up again, and I'm quite shocked that people actually want to hear about what I have to say if I'm honest!

Its helped me believe that I can deal with Autism and I have ideas and knowledge that I can share with others, that could make a difference, and that I can contribute a lot to the Autism community.
Its also been a great way to meet other autism parents and share ideas and thoughts on ways to help, which has been one of the best things about the blog, and the other networking sites that I'm on.

So that's it for now. Once this essay has been sent I can celebrate and then concentrate on learning more about autism, meeting more people, sharing what knowledge I have through the blog, and creating a lot more, hopefully interesting, posts... so watch out!!

one lovely blog!

2009-05-18T20:09:00.005+01:00

I just received this from rebelmother , what a lovely thought considering my blog is only just over a week old!! Please visit her blog for me as a thanks.

What a good idea, as you send it to new blogs that you come across, and then post on your blog so your readers can see and visit them too.

When I have more time (less than 2 weeks till essay due then course is finished. And its half term next week. yikes!!) I will do the same and pass it on.

Ive decided to devote more time to autism blogging and promoting autism in the UK via the Internet, and try and share what experiences I have to help others in a similar situation. Hopefully though this blog and social networks.

Lets hope I can do it and make a small difference in a huge world. Thanks for reading!

Ruby..the therapeutic dog

2009-05-18T12:48:00.017+01:00

Ruby is a Yorkshire terrier. We have had her since December and she is now 6 months old. I got her for 2 reasons.

1. company for me when the kids are staying at their dads some weekends and just company in general and
2. for S...so she is also a therapeutic dog.

I thought it would help S to show emotions, if that's the right phrase...I'm not sure, it makes him sound Vulcan!!

Put it this way if I want a cuddle from him or a kiss I literally have to pin him down and hold on to him for dear life and cuddle him, with him loosely putting his arms half way around me for 5 seconds then letting go. All very emotional less. His 3 year old brother E on the other hand is always cuddling me and kissing me and likes nothing better than to hold hands while we watch the TV...a complete contrast!! *(the contrast and how different it is now, having a non-autsim child is another blog post!)

So I thought a dog would help S to show his feelings and it has worked!!

hurrah...one mission accomplished!!

He cuddles her and plays with her and likes to have her sitting on his lap and he does show emotional towards her....to the point now where he wont leave her alone!

He still never cuddles me, I have to ask for a "limp" cuddle but I'm used to it. Its just good to see him actually taking an emotional interest and showing that he is capable of it, in his own way.

Ok one minute he can be all over the dog, then the next its as if she isn't there...its never contestant like you or I would be with a pet but....its worked and he loves Ruby, as we all do.

What the Dr. said....not alot!

2009-05-13T19:00:00.006+01:00

Just a quick update on the trip to the Doctors.

Basically he said I have to turn " the Dark " into a positive so that S is no longer scared of the dark. Well, blow me....what an insight I would never had thought of that!! (sorry....sarcasm!)

I asked him about a referral to sort out the dark and anxiety issues, it was ignored. I have to make the dark fun for S so that it no longer scares him. Well I hardly sit there going " oh yes Sam being in the dark is very scary so I'm not surprised you don't like it." do I !!!

I always reassure him that there's nothing to be scared off: nothing will get him and nothing will get in the house etc etc etc.

Is it me? Am I making more of the problem that it is? I'm beginning to think so. I know its not a life threatening problem but if S has said he is getting fed up of being scared of the dark and if I'm noticing that his anxiety levels on the whole seem to be rising then I think it IS a problem and I need more help to rectify that, as I have done all I can do on my own.

I just don't seem to be getting the help that I need and I'm not sure why.

Night anixety....Lets see what the Dr says

2009-05-12T20:26:00.004+01:00

I'm taking S to the Doctors tomorrow. I never take him to see the GP about his autism, because, to be honest I rarely have to see anyone. Its not a curable disease or something that can be "treated" with medication so I just carry on and deal with what ever is thrown at me. However Ive decided to take him because I want a referral to the children's mental health team.

Why do I want this? Because S is developing what I call Night anxiety (there probably is a technical term but I prefer my own!)

As soon as it gets dark S changes into a frightened little child who is scared of his own shadow. Anything makes him jump, he will not leave my side whatsoever and all lights must be on in the room we are in and surrounding rooms. Any noise will make him jump, even if its me asking him something, he will start to cry saying "I've scared him". His eyes flicker around the room as if hes looking for something and he sits huddled up with a frightened look on his face. He also suffers more and more with bad dreams and thinks that monsters are going to come and get him so i have to make sure there are no gaps in the curtains.

His whole persona changes, his face has a "scared look" on it, he talks in a baby voice and he shows signs of anxiety....fiddling with his hands and his general body language

Its getting to the point now where its becoming a problem, for him and for me so I need to try and stop it in its tracks before it takes over.
He only does it at home, which leads me to believe I know what the cause is. He is fine when he stays at his Dads (he says because its a flat nothing will get him because the monsters are not sure which flat to pick)
This leads me to believe that the underlying cause is the fact that we privately rent this house and he knows that someone else owns it, not us. Maybe this insecurity is causing the problem, thinking that we could be "kicked out" as the saying goes.

I'm trying to get a council house because I think that then I could tell him it is "our" house and we are never going to move again and this will stop a lot of his thoughts/anxieties. (I say trying, I have no idea of when/ if this is going to happen...another story in itself)

So we will see if the Doctor will refer him or if he just dismisses it as nothing, and I'll post what happens....in the meantime if you have any thoughts please leave a comment.

Going to the shop....and why.

2009-05-10T15:41:00.008+01:00

Ive been trying to persuade S to go to the shop, which is only 2 minutes away, for ages now. He wont go. He said he is too scared to go on his own....which is fair enough.

Friday afternoon he went with his friends to the shop to get something, a cap gun. Then Saturday morning he got up and shouted "is the shop open?" I said yes, and the next thing i know he is dressed and running around saying hes going down the shop to get some caps for this toy gun. After a manic few minutes of me trying to talk to him, have you got your phone, have you got money, what are you going to do after etc, He went of to the shop...on his own...end off!

So because *he* wanted something desperately that was within reach he didn't give anything else a thought...."I need caps from the shop" was his motivation and nothing could distract him from that! If I had said...get me some milk while you are there...he would have said "no, I'm not going then!"
It always has been on his terms....everything from playing to learning. The school call this manipulation!! yes...they have no idea, don't even get me started!!

I always say he sees life with blinkers on....he is purely motivated by what he wants..because that is how his brain is wired! He cannot see other peoples perspective or their needs. he is driven by his own needs. If those needs cannot be met, that's it...meltdown time. if something happened or needs to be done that doesn't fall within the remit of his wants and needs....its not going to happen, unless i can turn it around to fit him. I'm always 5 steps ahead, or at least try to be. He has always been like this, since birth, never interested in anyone or anything unless it can help him, because he cannot see any other way of looking at things. I have no idea if this makes any sense...please let me know! All I do know is that.....

This isn't manipulation....this is autism....

The blog is back! with a new direction!

2009-05-10T12:03:00.005+01:00

Yes I've decided to start blogging again!! Why....well its all thanks to twitter.

Yesterday I sent a tweet which to me was just a normal tweet...
( my first attempt at trying to get a screen print to work. hopefully you can read it!)

I sent this then probably went a made a cuppa. When I went back to twitter I had so many replies I was gob smacked! My twitter friends were saying how good that was and asking me questions, I even had people tweeting me who had seen it on the timeline.

I don't post a lot about autism on twitter for 2 reasons.
1. This is where i have fun!
2. I thought i would bore people and no one really wants to hear about it.

I think I may have been wrong! People do want to hear about autsim, maybe not on twitter all the time but they do want to read about how people deal with autism and what happens in day to day life.

So Ive decided to carry on with this blog and concentrate on the autism issues I face and how my son and I deal with them (or not!) I always try and help other people I come across as my son was diagnosed when he was 3 in 2003 so alot of people ask me about autism as I've been dealing with it for so many years.

I'm now thinking that this blog may be the best way to help other parents and it will also help me to remember I'm not alone in this.

My hope is that people read the coming posts and learn, share and tell other people about it and i can try and make a small difference in the huge world of Autism!!

So that's it for now... please leave any comments you have and pimp my blog!!!

A brief snippet of my life...

2009-02-24T19:03:00.008Z

Ive been sorta busy the last week, well it was half term so kiddywinks were home so it was complete madness!! Ive decided to leave my blog to just grow naturally ( or should that be organically!) and just post about...well anything really!!

So, apart from having another essay due in a couple of weeks, my other concern (AGAIN) has been my eldest sons education. Although progress has been made today. To cut a long story short, I'm his carer as he has high functioning autism. I'm not gonna go on about it too much as that's not what i wanna do with this blog, but suffice to say, hes a normal kid, but sees and interprets the world differently. For instance, we are in the front room and I say to him " can you take your plate outside" Now YOU know that i mean the kitchen. HIS reply was "why do i have to take my plate to the garden, that's s stupid thing to do, you don't put plates in the garden"etc etc. I rest my case.

So I have trouble getting him to read and do homework at home, as in his mind school is for school work and home is for playing games! What do I find in his reading book....a note saying "please get him to learn these words as he is very behind and needs to make progress for middle school. " well I nearly blew my top, and I replied" I know he is behind and needs to make progress, I thought that was the SCHOOLS JOB!" ok bit OTT, but I keep telling them I'm having trouble getting him to do stuff at home and they, actually everyone, just ignores it. Its just me and the kids, and I cant go every day with hours spent arguing over reading a book! ( Ive already had 3 years of it so trust me I cant take much more!!)

I must say tho that today I found out that he is doing his homework in school and he IS doing it and NOT moaning about it...which is very good progress for him, and finally something postive from the school.

This is just a snippet of what goes on, and if you magnify it by about 1000 then "welcome to my life". I will just carry on with the mental exhaustion...! (no not really, I'm good to go!!)

End of ranting.....

Breaking news

2009-02-15T19:09:00.002Z

Ok its not exactly breaking news but as you can see I have redesigned my blog! And if I say so my self its looking pretty dam cool.

Its not 100% yet as I have no idea what those "undefined" do-dars are on the left, so I'm working on it but I think it reflects me so much better (my secretary thinks so aswell)

So I wont faff around with it anymore as its taken me a couple of days to do, and I'll concentrate on writing my blog, instead of making it look pretty!!!

word of the week - Faff, or Faffing around, I just like the sound of it!!!!

trying again...

2009-02-14T12:30:00.000Z

I called this blog Rate limit exceeded because that's what keeps happening to me on tweetdeck!!! I couldn't think of anything else to call it, and that just popped into my head.

Maybe its cos I tweet to much, so I obviously have something to talk about!

Ive tried blogging before, and failed...got a bit bored of it and had nothing much to talk about BUT I've decided to give it another go, now that I'm doing a degree through the open uni, twittering, and just doing stuff in general, I may, just may be a bit more interesting.....or maybe not.